★↗V i V i A n↙☆ 永遠を永遠に信じている。

I wish you never been to my life
I wish I wasnt part of you
I wish I could wash away all the memories I had between you and me, though, it might be the sweetest memory I ever had with you
I wish I wasnt biologically related to you

Sometimes.. I really wish these wishes can be a real one
But, I know, I will be regret if these wishes does come true

I hate all the suffering you brought to be me
I hate all the tears I tasted because of you, because of what you have done to me, to us, to this biological bond
I hate that I cant live in a life without this bond, this biological bond I had always hating at, hating but cant do a thing, cant change a thing, even a little
I hate that I had to hate you, the one I used to love so much, the one I used to think is my only haven, the one I used to rely on so much
before...I found out, all these are lies
before...I found out, what I used to believe in are just a mirage, created by me

I hate that I cant live without you
I hate that I have to live with you
I hate to be followed by these depress these anxiety behend my back, like a never ending trip.
ENDLESS.

endless, but I am tired of these.
tired of these hating and wishing.

wishes that would never come true.
hates that would never stop growing.